In my previous post I told you that I would explain more about my choice to drive to Bloomington. The trip was about 14 hours each way. I can’t tell you how many times someone asked me, “Why don’t you just fly?” or “Who do you know there? Is it a man?” For the record I don’t know anyone, man or otherwise, in all of Minnesota. I decided to pick a place where I have no ties to once again prove to myself that I can do things on my own. The drive was the best part of that. I had never driven more than 4 hours on my own. I was nervous as hell. I survived though. I proved to myself once again that I am stronger than I believe. I’ve struggled with my confidence pretty much my entire life but since I got divorced I promised myself that I would do something about it. I am almost 30 years old and I feel like I have missed out on so much in life because I didn’t think I could do it or was too scared of what people would think of me. Now that I have what feels like a second chance at life I want to do things differently. I want to enjoy myself, I want to laugh and smile, and most importantly I want to see the world. I don’t need a companion to do that. I can do it all by myself…and so can you!
This is actually the second trip I have taken alone. In December I went to Los Angeles. I also didn’t know a soul there. I did fly since I only had a week of vacation and didn’t want to spend most of it driving but if I had more time I would have driven. It was the best trip I’ve ever taken. Even better than Bloomington since it was my first trip alone. I met a girl from Canada on my first day there and we did a hop on hop off bus tour and ate at a couple of fancy restaurants for lunch and dinner. I had a great time and became friends with a total stranger. I never felt so free, confident, and accepted. I was in a big city figuring everything out on my own and nothing bad happened. In fact, the best thing happened. I came home with a renewed vigor for life. I told myself I wouldn’t waste another second and that even if I never found someone to share my life with again I could still live a happy and fulfilled life. I am currently doing that. I have been single for one year….yes, completely single. I am finding myself. I am learning to love the woman I see in the mirror every day and most importantly I am slowly but surely following every single one of my dreams. This blog is one of them. I was so afraid to start writing but it is an outlet for me and I hope that I can be an inspiration for other women who have gone through similar situations.
I want to thank each and every person that reads this post or any post on my blog. I am so proud of it and love sharing bits and pieces of myself with you.
Love and light,